I understand brother. I’m a 48 yr old smoker who endures the looks of those self righteous ones who have no faults worse than mine. At least, Im not caught up in the vanity of many I see in the church wanting to be seen and loving the sound of their own voice every week while wearing expensive suits patting each other on the backs for being faithful enough not to smoke. I like to smoke. I don’t know why but I do. Try to keep in mind that we may not always be this way. Keep the desire to stop alive in your heart. The Father judges us on the desires of our heart. We may be stronger in things they are not. Ive seen them in church who really don’t want to be there or are there for socializing. At least, I only go when I want to and not because I have to. I help and give to anyone who asks. I treat all the same :men,women,adults,children,family,friends,religious affiliation,race,nationality,poor,wealthy…and smokers,non smokers for all have been found wanting.