I have made covenants in the temple. But I am unworthy to attend, because I stopped tithing. I have failed in many ways. Such as not studying and understanding scripture and as a result not passing that on to my children. The reason I stopped tithing is due to bad financial decisions that hurt my daughter more than helped. What is the worst that can happen to me as a result of all this?
I feel your sorrow and regret over your past decisions. May the Lord comfort you.
Life has a way of creeping up on us. And many times, we have to be brought to our knees both figuratively and literally before we realize some of the choices we’ve made have taken us further from the Lord rather than closer. But the gospel of Jesus Christ is not for perfect people. It is for people like you and me who make mistakes and find a way to move on in the Lord’s way, so that one day, we may be made perfect in Him.
The first thing to do is stop asking “What is the worst that can happen?” Instead, have faith in Christ. Call upon the power of the Atonement to make a difference in your life. Whatever your decisions and actions of the past, you may receive forgiveness and find a path to happiness.
Then start talking with your bishop about getting help to straighten things out in your life. I see that you’ve mentioned several trials that you’re subject to at the moment. Ask for advice or names of people who can offer the sound advice you need to get through those trials.
Make a decision now to be the person your Heavenly Father wants you to be. It is a life-long journey we’re on. Don’t expect to achieve your goals in a single day or week or even one year. But as you renew your covenants and continue to do so, the Lord will strengthen you in your afflictions. Notice that I did not say he would take all the trials away. That’s not usually how the Lord operates. He usually strengthens you to withstand the trials you have. The strength you receive is going to be equal to the faith you have in His power to do so.
All my prayers go with you. May the Lord take you by the hand.